Known. Advent Season 2019.

“Fall in love with someone who is both your safe place and your biggest adventure.” – Bianca Sparacino

One of my all time favorite songs that reminds me of my love is at the link below! Let it play as you read or listen to it when you have finished, it really is a good one!

The Advent season has become such a special time for me. Each year there are so many ways that I can celebrate the greatest love I have ever known on a personal, quiet, and special level but I choose to celebrate him with love letters. My season is not all wrapped up in pretty package and frilly bows – even though I can rock the wrapping of a present, it’s not a time of year that requires mass amounts of decorations – even though the house explodes in Christmas cheer. It’s not the time we’re family means the most or friends collect treasures for each other, these are all extras for the season for me. Bonuses.

The main and utmost goal of the season is to express a letter of love to the one that loves and knows me best. The one that will always be cherished to my core no matter who comes in and out of my life. I’m talking the one that will never leave or forsake me, the one that will welcome me into his loving arms every time. No matter what. This is first and foremost. Everything else like I previously stated is an added bonus.

Last year, I had done a series of campfire pictures with a little saying from my heart that expressed my appreciation to my Love. This was the first photo and statement from Instagram 2018. Also the first of the expressions that my love could bestow upon me … to be known by him.

Fully known.

Kinda scary known.

To be known to the core, to be known and loved by You, to be known as you know the trees and the birds and still you love me. To be known. To be truly, truly known, understood beyond question, beyond hurt, beyond anger, beyond fears, beyond anything I could imagine. Now, that’s how I want to be know by You! #saucyroots ♥️ #known #advent #sacredlife #6weeksandonechristmasday #christmasseason #advent2018 #fire #love #loveletters

Needless to say, I have fallen in love with the one who not only knows me best, he is my safe place and there is a guarantee that there will always be great adventures as long as we stay close.

“You are the finest, loveliest, tenderest, and most beautiful person I have ever known – and even that is an understatement.” F. Scott Fitzgerald

the quote you just read is such an amazing testament from an adoring husband. To have a quote like that typed out and left in my lunch box, well, be still my racing heart! The one thing my Love does is he turns this type of quote around and retypes it for me so it sounds a bit like this … you are the finest, loveliest, tenderest, and most beautiful creations I have ever created and known all the way to your heart – and even that is an understatement.

“Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.” Colossians 3:2

This year the theme or “word” of 2019 was balance. One of the learning lessons that has taken much of the year was the lesson of understanding that being known by my Love is not a scary thing. ( I totally thought it was. How could anyone see the things I had hidden? And by the way, Love, you aren’t supposed to see those. ) Having the understanding that it’s ok for him to know me as well as it is for me to know him in return is freeing. Freeing. I know he, out of all 6 billion people in the world, will never use any of what I have hidden against me. Freeing. Not only that, his secrets are never hidden but reveled for the soul purpose of sharing. Could I get to a place such as this? A place where all my secrets could be reveled for the lovely mysteries that they really are, the gorgeous flaws that make me the tenderest creation?

What about all the hidden things in him that I have yet to know? Wait … if he knows all of me then we are completely off balance and clearly, oh so clearly, I’m not holding up my end of the greatest love relationship. Yup, I see I’m short changing both of us. Oh snap!

We are made to be cherished, not compared. We are made to be celebrated, not compete.” – Blessed Is She

So much of our world and our daily interactions are based on a lie. If you read the last post ” Mind challenged. Heart healed. ” you will see what I mean about showing who we truly are and showing who we think we want to be, or who we show to the world that really isn’t anything of who we really are. The lies we are convinced of comes from the fact that we really don’t know who we are. There I said it. We are not comfortable in our own skin or we truly don’t know our own hearts desires, our own soul needs, or even our own mind sets. Sooooo … we look around and compare what we do know with others. We compare.

We begin to compete for love, attention, and even a slightest little bit of happiness only find ourselves down a windy road of incompleteness. Dangerous territory ahead! At what point or age or sign post do we change directions? It’s, in my opinion, not until a revelation comes about that we take as truth and grow with. For me, my truth was a train wreck. The fact that my Love expressed my life right in front of my eyes as one of the ugliest train wrecks I have ever seen shook me to my very core, it even shook every cell in my body to their cores. To be known and understood in this kind of way was haunting.

Scary? Yes.

Truth. Yet all of it so true.

But than again, I am so thankful that he will never use it against me and that he will turn everything about that train wreck into a thing of beauty. He has promised beauty from ashes. What a love. My Love.

So my love letter this year to him would should a bit like this. My Love, thank you for knowing me to my core, to my very heart. Thank you for turning my unknowns into broken chains, turning my train wrecks into beautiful stories, my anger and rage into tenderness, turning my untruths into revealed mysteries that only reflect your face in a way that can only be done with the purest of intentions and full of your truths. Thank you for showing that you may know all of me but I still struggle wanting to know all of you. You are the best love and only love that I will cling too. You are the best and only love that will cherish and celebrate me in all my forms. Words of thank you for now will never be enough but the best I can do until we meet again. I love you!

“In the same way, we can see and understand only a little about God now, as if we were peering at his reflection in a poor mirror; but someday we are going to see him in his completeness, face to face. Now all that I know is hazy and blurred, but then I will see everything clearly, just as clearly as God sees into my heart right now.” 1 Corinthians 13:12

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